Oh day 2

Monday: do something for yourself.
I stayed home from school today so i could catch up on some sleep. Then I went to work today, and got paid for pushing a mute button and taping a chord to the floor. I love my job. :D I think I managed to do something for myself today. :)

Food: 1
(1 bowl Raisin Bran 200 w/ soy milk 100 , Acai berry juice 150) i don't give myself 2 points for staying under 500 cals, because i might have another bowl of cereal tonight.
Water: 1
Exercise: 0
Post: 2
Challenge: 2

d2/lbs0/pts8
cw: 123

I made a promise and now i'm gonna keep it. :)

So, today sucked. The weekend pretty much sucked. I haven't left my house other than to smoke since Friday afternoon. I've been eating non-stop, though i guess today was better than yesterday.
Today was day 1 of abc. 500 cals. I failed.
Spinach-egg-zuciinni thing, a lot of juice, an apple, and some other things i can't remember right now but i feel like i ate more than that today. I do know that all these together made more than 500.
So, in accordance to the 28 day plan:

food: 0
water: 0
exercise: 0
post: 2 (well, at least there's that.)
challenge: 0 (no self esteem building today. quite the opposite actually)

so (day/lbs lost/points), 1/0/2

hopefully tomorrow will be better.
much love,
~Willow

Oh, the necissary evil.

It seems I come back here every couple of months, promise to do better, promise to come back more often. I never do. I hope this time that'll change.

I'm planning on doing the 28 day plan in combination with the ABC diet, which I'm sure I've mentioned before. According to Losertown I'll hit my Halloween GW in time.

28 day plan will make me post every day. ABC will keep me under my gw. When i wake up, it will be time to start the clock. :)

Wish me luck!
~Willow

GUESS WHO....

CAN FIT IN HER I'M-TOO-FAT-TO-FIT-IN-THESE-BUT-I'LL-KEEP-THEM-ANYWAY-JEANS!!!!!
That's right! I've lost enough weight to fit in the jeans i bought to make me loose weight. They were a whole five bucks at a garage sale but they've been hanging on my wall for a year, daring me to be skinny.
Finally, i'm there!

ABC, new challenge

Well, ":)" aka ed_anabootcamp is starting a new challenge, thanks to faye. she's such a good leader...

anyway, it's a classic who-can-loose-the-most-this-month-wins challenge. prize? thinness. Imagine that.

Well, there aren't any rules, so i think i'm just going to go with ABC too keep my goals in check. Day one: 500 calories.

food so far today: (i'll edit later tonight to include everything)
3/8s of an apple: 30
organic tofu: 80
grapefruit juice:180
Soy sauce: 10
Total: 300

Oh Gawd

I've finally, finally slipped under 120. i'm 119.8. this is fantastic. You would think i would be jumping around for joy. I'm not. I just keep thinking about what It'll be like at 110. 108. 100. 99. At 99 lbs, My BMI will be 17.0. 108, I'll be 18.0. I can't wait. This has taken much, much too long.

Smoking is helping curb my appetite so much. I love it.

I asked a girl to the Sadie Hawkins. She's obnoxious as hell but she's kind of adorable, in her own little annoying way.

Have a good day everybody (if anyone actually reads this)
~Willow

Just a quick update

Mid-december, i tried to kill myself. I got landed in a mental hospital for a week. They made us eat five times a day (3 meals, 2 snacks) so my metabolism got blown through the roof. when i went in, i weighed 128. when i got out, i weighed 126. Now, a month later, i weigh 121.4. WhoopWhoop. It's fantastic.

I've started smoking. It's hell. I hate it. but i love it soo, soo much. It's helping a lot with appetite, while it's ruining my already bad lungs. *sigh* like i need another addiction. *facepalm*

well, have a good day,
hope all is well in normal-land

~Willow