Quiz time!

How many of you can tell me how many times I've started the ABC diet and never finished it? Because going back three years and counting myself would just prove too damn difficult. Gold star to anyone who does though.
Anyway, point is, I've begun anew...again. And ABC day 1 was a freakin' success! On the ABC livejournal, I said I was "smoothie fasting" which turned out pretty close, as my aim was to have no solids today to make up for my massive fuckup last night.
It's pretty satisfying to know that all i've consumed today is...
2 cups chopped strawberries (frozen, hence, smoothies) -- 100ish
1.5 cups Soy Milk  -- 165
1 can of Vegetarian Vegetable soup -- 225
3 cups green tea -- 0
Bringing us to a total of.... 490.

y'know, it's kind of odd. Eating less makes me feel my cigarettes more. It's been weeks since i've felt a nicotine buzz but of the 4 or so smokes i've had today, i've felt it twice. I don't know if i like that or not because there was a point where nicotine buzzes would just make me sick.
Goodnight world. Wish me luck on my 50 day endeavor to thinness!
<3
~Willow

Yeaaah....

I suck at promises. Not going to make any more.

But i managed to magically hit 124.0 today, held there from yesterday.

it's unsurprising, to be honest, seeing as all i've had to eat today was an iced mocha, 3 cookies, and some soy milk.

But this recent low has inspired me to do great things. Or at least... y'know, stop being such a fat ass. I've been slowing down a lot recently. tired, exhausted, not sleeping well (it's 4 AM, for example), easily fatigued (I can't even stand long enough to wait for the bus). I want to do, and be better.

I want to start restricting again. I've started college. It's okay, but stressful, and lonely, seeing as i live an hour away from the campus and don't have any friends. I'd like to get some control back.

So i'm going to aim minimalistically, not necessarily to any calorie goal, but keeping in mind about 800 to 1000 cals per day, tops. i wanna start planning my meals out, with give room in case i go out or something. i want to start doing yoga again - there's this 4 part video on youtube that i used to be able to do, easy peasy, but i tried tonight, and got through about one and half before i gave up. I just need to get my act together.

Wish me luck!

~Willow