Very Proud

I'm extremely proud of myself. I posted this elsewhere on the interwebs last night, but it needs to be posted here, because I am just that damn proud of myself.

[start/]I beat a craving! I realize that, to most, curbing a craving is something they do on an hourly basis, but oh lovely ladies you are skilled, you just don't know it.

The two piggish adults in my house have a horrible habit of buying junk food all the time. I swear, I think they view it as a hobby. "What new crap food can we buy today?" Well, with that nasty habit, I have a nasty habit of actually eating that disgusting food. Today, the pig-whore (the ugly thing that seems to be my father's girlfriend.) brought home a huge bag full of assorted Hershey's Chocolate. I'd already given in to a chocolate craving today, and didn't need another 100 calories to weigh me down. I pulled one little bar out of the bag and stared at it for a second or two. Then I just dropped it back in the bag. Feeling proud of myself, I slowly walked back to the stairs to go down to my room when I had the idea to get a drink of water, just so that I could get into the habit of reaching for water instead of reaching for food. As I drank the water, I tried counting down from 100, and filled up the glass again and again until i reached zero. I managed to drink 5 do it. glasses of water instead of giving in.

I LOVE having control [\end]

I'm considering doing the Ana Boot Camp diet. Yesterday I had 300 calories, which is perfect to start off ABC, which allows 500 the first day, as well as the second day. I might have to take them up on that extra 200 calories I didn't eat yesterday, and add them on to today's 500 because I'm going to a concert tonight. No Doubt's reunion tour, with Paramour and The Sounds. It'll take a lot of energy out of me, and I'll need it.

I'm at a steady waterweight of 125 lbs. My goal is to be down to 122 by the end of the week. It might be a bit of a pipe dream but it's worth a shot.

I'm sorry

for taking an entire month to post. It's been over a month, actually.
My best excuse is that it was the last month of school, I needed to focus on not failing.
I'm back up to 127 or so, which is amazing, considering I've spent most of the past month pigging out on just about everything in sight.
I have a little bit of a to do list for this summer. Regardless if you want to read it or not, here it is:


~Read Wicked again, all the way through this time.
~Read Son of a Witch,
~Read A Lion Amongst Men
~Read Of Mice and Men (this one is for school, summer reading assignment for AP language)
~Write a Novel - Finish the one that's already started.
~Lose 20 pounds
~Rollerblade at least three times a week this month, five times a week next month, and every day the last month. (except when it rains. Puddles + Bearings = rust = bad.)
~Draw a picture every day.