Hello all

So this is the start of my pro-ana blog. I've been fighting food for a very long time and most girls would say that I'm not fat, and shouldn't start this diet at the weight that I am now (130 lbs.). I'm lucky that I won't have to loose fifty or seventy pounds to feel good about myself. Loosing thirty pounds would be ideal, but I'm sure I'd be happy to just loose twenty or so.

I'm sure some girls are snorting, thinking, "Yeah give me three months and that weight would be gone and then some. Easy." Sure. You've also been there. I haven't. Not quite yet. I'm new at this, you have to remember that.
Mind you, I'm not new at starving myself for days at a time. I'm not a noob when it comes to the feeling of guilt when i eat something that has more than fifty calories.

My stats:
weight: 130 lbs.
BMI: 22.3
My goal: 108 lbs (BMI: 18.5 -lowest healthy BMI)

Funny, my goal is to loose 22 lbs. 22 is my lucky number.

Today, I don't plan on fasting. Honestly, I'm craving fruit and water and other foods. Those other foods include ramen, cereal, toast, and chocolate. I can't eat any of those, of course. But they're nice to think about. Oh, I'm also craving coke, but I can't have drink that because of caffeine, not the calories. I can't have caffeine until Thursday. I've gone without it for a little over four months (to break an addiction) and now I'll be able to drink it again! Yay!

Today, I plan to drink that eight glasses of water (as I should plan to drink every day), and eat a grapefruit and an apple. I might have some dry toast later tonight as a reward if I don't eat anything else.

Much love, Willow.