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My frog is creeping down...
I am 127 lbs as of ten minutes ago. It's one tiny pound away from my goal weight 1.

I'm proud of myself, except for the fact that I can't seem to stop purging. I've purged practically every night for the past two weeks. Today (well, i guess yesterday) i had 1 grapefruit, a bunch of vitamins, and a diet mountain dew. 100 calories. Wonderful. but then, i stared watching tv online. I got anxious. I started munching on some candy that I left on my window sill.
I ate two mini boxes of nerds, 4 starburst, and 2 packets of pez candies (those things are a lot more disgusting than I remember them). then i went down stairs and grabbed 4 ice cream sandwiches. What compelled me to do that is beyond me.
I ate it all, considered not purging, pressed play on the show i was watching, paused, asked, "who the hell am i kidding?" and then went to purge.
Wonderful night.

I got a new bed, a new desk, a desk chair, and a bookshelf. My father got pissed that i didn't express my gratitude (probably because I would rather sleep on the floor on my pillows as i have been for the past 2 years) to his pigwhore of a girlfriend for spending what was apparently 1100 dollars. I don't know why he thinks this new house will make all of our family problems just disappear. I still hate him.

anyway, i'm off to sleep now, even if it is 7 in the morning.
Loves,
~Willow